The creation process of my earlier figurative works followed a ritualized sequence.
Liquid yellow conquered the canvas in impulsive gestures. Occasionally vermilion followed. Then there was a calm of contemplation.
I looked for the beginnings of figurative motifs in the resulting forms.
If I found any, I worked them out with more colors.
This process can be seen in the unfinished painting from 1995.
The figurative ideas here are set off with charcoal.
I subjected the color to the form finding.
So strongly that I forced it into a striking application.
My clearest example is the “Bull” from 1989.
I was slow to open up to the emotional vibration of the paint.
Motifs wanted to be painted out of me in order to free me, to heal me.
By 2023, I had reached a level of recovery and acceptance of my being that allowed me to lovingly turn to color.
The ritual has transformed for the abstract paintings.
I start with water on the canvas.
Through the gun, a color is applied that I feel like.
My hand brings the next color into the action.
Weapon and hand play alternately with the colors.
I am free.
The binding framework of the figurative is dissolved.
The color meets me abstractly on the canvas and I play.
I am interested in an appreciative dialog between the colors.
